jealous

i get jealous when i see people having close friends

to tell u frankly i have never had good friends

well u'll say all friends are good

well yeah i have had and still have friends

but not friends like harold and kumar :D

not someone i can share things with

not someone i can just roam around just 'BEING NILESH' as he is......... not pretending anything not conscious about anythng

not someone i can have fun with

according to me u can find the definition of a good frnd in the song 'I'll Be there for u' The Rembrandts Album

i have had very good friends in ahemdabad and even have good friends now

but a feeling keeps bugging me that none of them would ever sing this song for me

neither would i ..

now this would sound funny but ...sadly itz true

people giving casual smiles , hiis and the hellos dont count as frnds

neither does helping ..

its a part of humanity i guess we all shud help each other :D

when i ask myself why do i not have any close frnds

maybe i was plain unlucky

maybe i dint let anyone be close

maybe maybee was a bad honeybee so her 'e' was cut off :o

now u may call me a cry baby

i am in this matter

this is very close to my heart

speaking of that song

its best part is this

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

i get very nostalgic for something that has never existed

may you all be happy

\peace/

:)